13 January 2014 at 11:37

This is about as bad as it gets with these energies. Andrea knows how shitty this is. She has been through it many times. People's thought energy comes into her body. This is not a pleasant feeling. It is not anything minor. This is very difficult to discuss for various reasons. 

There is one thing men will not want to hear. Men will not want to hear that they are unattractive. It's as simple as that. Many of them can be quite immature. Andrea will not want to admit this and it's going to piss you off. It's about as bad as it can be.


'I don't really want to think about it.'


Andrea can understand something. I am an angelic being. Andrea feels upset. She is trying to get through this. Her plans have been altered. The energy is too intense for her to leave the house. This is an unusual thing, but it's not related to agoraphobia. It is similar to agoraphobia because it deals with public places. Andrea is unable to leave the house. She will be attacked by energy.


'I really don't want it to be this.'


Somebody has been ruining Andrea's life.


'I want it to be that she's ruining my life by writing all of this.'


That would be somebody who is causing somebody some stress. She won't want to leave him alone. Andrea won't understand this. He doesn't want to tell her. He doesn't know how to. He doesn't really hate her, but he's beginning to.


'I really don't want it to be that.'


It will become hate very soon when she won't stop. She won't stop. She will want to think she can control the situation. She will want to think she can control this and it's the same thing with another person. Andrea can understand that she has a Taurus Moon. This makes Andrea something that is the opposite of Scorpio. It could be understood from a Vedic perspective, but the terminology would be quite different. Andrea understands this because she has studied some Vedic astrology. She doesn't use Vedic astrology, but she is a fan of a Vedic astrologer. She likes to watch the videos he makes.


'I really don't want it to be this.'


'I want it to be something else.'


Somebody is corresponding to something which is a negative influence. This can be understood. Andrea will understand that this confrontation occurred around the start of a new Saturn. A new Saturn that was opposing Andrea's Sun. This would have been back in 2010. Lydia wanted me to say 2009, but I want to talk about something a little bit different. Something that Andrea wasn't thinking about. 2010 was a different year.


'I really want it to be something different.'


There was a man by the name of Mr. Booby. This is not his name. This is just a joke. His name is something else. He made some messages. This was a certain somebody. He sent Andrea 10 months of messages. He sent Andrea some messages and he was dating another woman. This was a younger woman and she wasn't the best match for him. She wasn't the same type of personality, but they liked each other. He didn't understand why he was doing this. You will not want to guess.


'I don't want it to be that it was him. This will be the worst thing for me.'


It was him. It was him. He was messaging Andrea and his friends are going to think he is a real asshole. Messaging a woman and pretending it's not him. This is a big lie and he carried it on for about 10 months. He encouraged her to write on Facebook things all about him. He said that he liked it when she would write about him. His friends aren't very intelligent about how much he likes attention. Andrea can understand and knows him pretty well in a roundabout way. She can understand that he is very immature and will do a cartwheel in the bar to impress everybody. Now, this is not anything that impresses too many people when a man in his 30s does a cartwheel. He thought it was impressive and he wanted everybody to see it. This is how a 5-year-old child behaves. Andrea knows all about it. Andrea used to do cartwheels. She wanted to be a gymnast for a little while. Children want to be lots of different things and a gymnast was one thing. 

Andrea had a little leotard and she used to do her exercises. Andrea enjoyed flipping over the couch when she was a young girl. She would use it like one of those things that gymnasts flip over. I don't want to tell Andrea what they are called. She can look it up. I'm not here to divulge unknown information which would give Andrea an unfair advantage. I am here to divulge information that is necessary to accomplish what needs to be done. 

13 January 2014 at 10:50

'I hate the fact that Andrea hates us.'


This is a better thing to be thinking right now. She is not very interested. You won't get it in your head. Andrea doesn't feel like having you bother her. She is not looking for a man. This is one of those things that happens over and over. Andrea doesn't want anyone to bother her.


'I really don't want it to be this.'


Do you think she's interested? She isn't. She doesn't want you fantasizing about her. This makes life very awkward. She's not looking for that. She can feel that you are thinking about her. You are trying very hard to get her to hang out with you. She will not want to do this. This would get kind of annoying. She really wants to do some work. You're not very interesting to her. She doesn't enjoy doing what you do. 

Having the same interests is important. The attraction isn't there. This would get very frustrating. She wants you out of her hair. And she can't even pick up the phone right now because of how much stress you are making her feel. This is a big problem.


'I really don't want it to be this.'


She really doesn't want it to be you. She really doesn't want you as her boyfriend. She is not physically attracted to you. You aren't her type. She doesn't find you attractive. You aren't the kind of guy she wants. You are dwelling on the wrong sort of woman. She doesn't want you. 

'I really hate this.'

This is Andrea trying to be direct. She can't even say it to you. You want to just ignore the fact that she's writing this and assume it's not about you. You don't want to understand this. You want to keep going on. This would get very stressful. It's not something that turns her on. People don't get turned on by stress. 

People don't enjoy having this and Andrea is getting annoyed because she has to deal with something else. She got 2 people bothering her and you won't want to understand this. You are going to want to think she is just writing this. She just wants to be left alone and it's getting upsetting.


'I really want it to be that she likes me.'


I want to start thinking about this. This is a very annoying perception. It's because of Andrea's energy. Andrea is attracting something she doesn't want and she was beginning to feel a little bit better. We have an annoying female who Andrea has been trying to get rid of. Now we have an annoying man who is giving Andrea too much energy too. Andrea has been wanting to get rid of this. It isn't working out. It's a big annoyance and she feels like she has to sit here all day. She has to sit here and type this so she won't be attacked by the bad energy. Andrea has trouble explaining this and she's hoping that I can try.


'I don't really want to admit this.'


There is a lot of energy off of the girl who pulled Andrea at The Ossington. This girl is directing a lot of negative energy. Andrea doesn't want this energy. You want to make it into a joke. 

She won't want to hang out with you. You are thinking sexual thoughts. Two negative energies to block out. This is a big pain in the ass. It's why she went into a homeless shelter. There was another man who was bothering her. She doesn't want it to happen again. You live right down the street from her. This doesn't make her like you more. She's not thinking it's a convenient thing. 

She's thinking that you don't have very much in common with her. You might argue that you do have stuff in common with her. There are a few things. These aren't things to base a relationship on. She has a different idea of what she wants.


'I really don't want it to be this.'


This is a horrible feeling. She feels stressed out. She is sitting here typing so your energy won't rest on her body. She doesn't want you to be thinking about her and she can move the energy. This is the only way she can move it so it doesn't completely annoy her. She can't move it into a drawing. She can't move it into anything else. She will be stuck outside getting upset if you don't stop doing this.


'I really want to have sex.'


You keep directing it onto Andrea because you are not understanding that she isn't interested. You want to be dating her because of her boobs. That's one of the most stupid reasons to pursue a woman. She doesn't have much in common with you. She doesn't like you. Not more than other people. She would rather have somebody she has strong feelings for. It's not something to enjoy. It's another reason to feel upset. 

You will read these words and only notice 2 of them. That's one of the most horrible things. People cannot even hear the word 'boobs' without their mind going to 'boobs'. And when a woman is trying to explain that this is the only reason you like her it gets pretty fucking annoying. And she doesn't have any interest in you.


'I really wish it was different.'


The energy keeps hanging on and trying to impress her in a roundabout way. Andrea can sense this and she's picking up on it. She doesn't want to think about you. She wants to move on. She's not wanting to become enemies. You want to think she's your girlfriend, but she's not really anything like that.


'I really want it to be something different.'


It is about this annoying. Andrea hates to have to explain it. She's not the one even saying this. I'm not going to get back into anything and you are being far too persistent.


'I want to be rude.'


It's not a good solution for the current situation.


'I want it to be something that's a good thing.'


It's a disruption. Andrea won't be able to go out to her art group because she won't want the energy bothering her. Andrea can't do things because of this psychic energy. She's not able to live like a normal person.

She can't stand the idea of being your girlfriend. It's not something she's looking for. It's kind of irritating. She doesn't want you to bother her. She can't get you to stop. This happens quite frequently. We are not going to get into why.


'I want it to be that she likes me.'


She really doesn't.


'I don't really want to admit that to myself.'


Somebody is in the background of her head. She understands what is going on, but we don't want to articulate it.


'I want it to be that he likes me.'


He's probably going through something similar.


'I want it to be something else.'


He's very happy to know something very interesting, but there is a problem with somebody else.


'Okay. I guess I'm understanding.'


It's about the same thing. Somebody has a very similar astrological chart. He might be having a similar confrontation.

13 January 2014 at 00:58

'I want it to be that she wants to be friends.'

It's getting on Andrea's nerves because of her intuitions, so she has gotten up to start doing this again. This is me talking through her body. I am a being by the name of Oundra. Some of you might think I'm evil. You don't want to think about why I say these things. Andrea isn't too happy. She knows how much it is going to hurt. Andrea will say that she is going to miss Andrew once he begins to live his own life.


'I don't understand why you would say that.'


This is why people get upset. Andrew has a big penis. All of the women chase after him. Andrea can understand what that's like. How would he like it if somebody grabbed him and called him the big penis man? How would he like to be tormented by frizzy-haired jocks with stinky feet? Men who don't change their underpants and eat gigantic plates of meat? This would upset him, but Andrea knows what he's like. She knows that he likes to kill and torture people in one of his various lives. 


'I really don't want to admit to myself that you are just saying this.'


Andrea knows how much he needs to be mocked. That it wasn't that funny before. Andrea can't get rid of the energy and she needs to say something better. I'm going to insult him. It will be a riot. I would suppose. I would suppose. But, will it work out? Will the insults be funny enough? Will it be thrilling enough? Will he be able to lick his own tongue? Will he be able to poop in the toilet? Andrea thinks this is getting a little bit predictable. There have been far too many poop jokes. We need to find something else to make fun of. We need to find something good. We need to find something funny. We need to make fun of something. And we can think of anything. There isn't too much about him that is funny. Nothing to make fun of. He doesn't have any funny noises. He doesn't have any funny quirks. There is nothing too funny. What can we make fun of? Andrea thinks maybe his belly button, but there is not too much that is funny about a stupid little hole. Nothing to poke a finger into. Nothing funny about that.


'You are not going to make me laugh.'


This is how he thinks. He sits in his room with his butt on the bed. These jokes are not funny at all. There is nothing funny about his butt on a bed. Nothing funny about his feet on the floor. Nothing funny about his boob because he hasn't got one. He only has a brain which has a bunch of wrinkles. People want to send him love poems telling him that his poop smells like flowers. Flowers of poop. Poop jokes aren't funny. Nothing is funny about poop. There is nothing much to laugh about. Andrea can't even laugh about how not funny this is. This is not funny. It is beginning to become very predictable. This isn't making anybody laugh. People are sick of hearing about this.


'Yawn.' says Mr. Jones as he says his bedtime story.


He doesn't really understand that none of his friends want him to be calling them stupid or rude. He has insulted 5 of his friends today. He didn't bother apologizing. Andrea has told on him. You are all going to find out tomorrow. Andrea feels so bored with this. She's tired of talking about all of you.


'I want it to be that she likes me.'


None of them really like Andrea.


'I don't really want Andrea to know this.'


Andrea knows. Andrea knows. Andrea knows. She knows what Andrew Jones does with his fingers. He shouldn't push them up there because it could cause an infection. Andrea can understand that he is going to murder her. Andrea knows how much he wants to murder her. She has already made the funeral arrangements.


'I don't want you to know this.'


There was somebody who murdered a bunch of people. We're not going to let him hurt us. We are not going to let Andrew Jones hurt us either. Andrew Jones is a mean person. It's true that he could be a serial killer. If Andrea got to know him better he might really kill her. She knows that's what his video art is about. It's about killing people. It has lots of dead people in it. And these jokes are truly bad. 

Andrea is praying in her mind that God will free her from everybody who wants to sleep with her or be her friend. Andrea doesn't want to have any friends. She wants you to all stop bothering her. She is getting very angry. She doesn't really want you to like her.

Making fun of Andrew hasn't solved any of these problems. Andrea is going to go to bed and fantasize about somebody with a fucking stupid armpit which will make farting noises. Actually, that's pretty gross. Isn't this scattered?


'It is.'


Lots of schizophrenics do this.

13 January 2014 at 00:23

'I really don't want it to be this.'

This is what it's going to be. Andrea can tell you something. There is something that is wrong with this picture. Andrea can tell you something. It's going to hurt you like a pig. A pig is going to hurt you. This is Mr. Oinky Pig.

'I really want it to be something different.'

This is not why Andrea wants to be your friend. Andrea won't want to have a friend. No more friends who are men. This is about as bad as it gets. This is about as bad as it can be. Andrea will know a few things. She's not going to want to say them. I'm not going to say them. We don't say every single thing we know. We are trying to help ourselves. You want it to be something else. You want it to be somebody who wants to express herself. This is one of the things. This gets to be a little bit of a nuisance. Andrea doesn't know how to say it.


'I want it to be that she wants me.'


This is not going to be easy to get. You are barking up the wrong tree. You don't want to admit it. It would get very annoying when a person is going through other stress. There is somebody named Monica who is causing just about as much stress. Both people are Scorpios. This would not be such a big deal. It's not such a big deal if you just start to let go. Start letting go and accepting something that's new. There is nothing to want about this. There is nothing to want.


'Me!' and that's what Andrew shall say.


Andrew is a bit dumb. Soon he's going to begin to laugh. This is why Andrea enjoys making fun of him and it is a funny, funny thing. Andrea can pick up on Andrew psychically. She will have him laughing all night. There is actually a very good reason. It's about Venus and his Mars. They are located someplace. It makes it easy for Andrea to intuitively perceive him. 

People aren't as aware of why they don't want this. This is kind of annoying. Andrea isn't meant to be with a person and they won't back down. They will not back down. It's a major confrontation. This is against Andrea's very nature. She hasn't really looked at it and thought about why. I can tell you a couple of things. Andrew is more aligned with Andrea. Andrew has more astrologically in common with her. There are many planets they have in common. There are many reasons.


'I really hate this.'


Andrew is a Cancer Sun with his Mars in Aries. This is like Andrea except for the opposite. This means that it's a good match. This is a very good match. And do you want to know why? Because they have a very similar nature. They don't understand how much, but it is very true. There are 2 people who are very direct in certain ways, but they aren't direct in others. Andrea thinks I am going off on a tangent. She's not very happy that I'm revealing this. I want to tell you about it because it's a little different from another Aries woman. Andrea will not know this, but his ex-girlfriend does not have Mars in Cancer. Her Mars will be somewhere else. It will cause a big conflict.


'I really hate this.'


This is a different kind of person who does not have the same personality. Andrea has a different personality. Andrea is a little bit more avoidant and less direct. Andrea has a very different personality. There is something she will not do. She will not poop on his bed, but his ex-girlfriend did this all the time. This was why they were together for so long. His ex-girlfriend liked to poop on his bed and he has a scat fetish. 

This is why they were such a great couple. They enjoyed each other's company so immensely. This is not something Andrea will do. She will probably never poop on his bed. 

Do you think that Jessica ever pooped on his bed? I think Andrea does. Andrea doesn't think that Andrew's a good match for her and it would partly be because he likes to play monopoly. Andrea thinks this is a dull way to spend an evening. It is only for suburban brats. Andrea might have it the wrong way. We will recant Andrea playing monopoly in high school and the board ending up on the other side of the room.


'What a horrible person!'


Andrea threw a monopoly board across a room. I can tell you she didn't enjoy playing the game. Andrea hated the game and this was something to upset many people. This is the Aries part of Andrea who has no patience for anything. She got incredibly angry when somebody called her stupid for not noticing something. This made Andrea furious. She threw the board across the room. 

At this stage in her life, Andrea would never do that, but Andrea was only a 16-year-old girl at this point. She was not happy to know that someone had landed on one of her properties and never bothered paying her. She wasn't wearing her eyeglasses because she was incredibly vain. This was a very angry moment and she didn't want to be made a fool of. 

This is an Aries personality trait and Andrea is extremely Aries with a planet in her 1st house & 2 planets in Aries. Andrea is not the one saying this. It's the angel who is named Oundra. I know how Andrea felt. She thought everybody would agree with her. She didn't understand how angry everybody would be when the monopoly board, the little houses, and the monopoly money were over on the other side of the room. Andrea isn't a person who likes to play games. It would be foolish to expect her to. It would be very foolish to expect Andrea to sit and play monopoly. Andrea really understands this about herself. She might not really like it.


'I want to think she is going to hang out.'


She won't want to do things unless she has a very strong motivation. She's not going to want to sit around and watch movies. Many people do not pick up on this. They won't understand. They want to think she's going to sit around and watch a movie. This is a big problem with certain people. Some people do not have patience for things without results. This is why Aries is considered competitive. 

You're trying to understand this. You would never understand this. You want to talk to somebody who lives in a different world. Andrea is too busy thinking about other things and she's not going to want to be bothered. You are going to think she is saying this and it's going to piss you off. You are going to try to find a common ground, but it will be like trying to cut away part of a jigsaw piece to fit it together. It's not going to fit and it's not going to work.


'I really want to hurt her feelings.'


Andrew will understand that he let his bitchy friend hurt somebody because their boobs are big and she's pretty. Monica is not sympathetic, kind, compassionate, or understanding. She's an opportunistic chick who wants to have flashy friends to impress people with and boost her status. Andrew hurt a girl with an abnormally overweight mother who got beat up a lot as a little girl to appease a bitch who hates women for being pretty. How would he like it if someone beat him up because he's cute? He just let the little bitch threaten a woman. It was not a good choice. Someone who has been massively ridiculed because of their mother's weight and doesn't have a caring family. He let a little twat hurt somebody because she's a selfish idiot. Monica is not very nice because she's about as stupid as that.


'I hate you so much.'


That's why. Just because a competitive girl wants to hurt somebody because of the way they look. That's kind of annoying. If a jock guy beat the shit out of you all these little idiots would be standing up for you. Not for a woman. Not for a woman. Not for a woman. Monica can go out and be post-Goth Barbie and adhere to societal norms as much as she wants. She's not going to get any respect from Andrea or anybody with half a brain.

12 January 2014 at 21:57

We have a little bit of a problem.

'I want it to be a little bit better.'


This is going to be quite a shitty blow to somebody and their ego. Andrea wants to explain something and it's more complicated than Andrea thinks. Andrea wants me to explain something. She thinks it is going to make these pains go away. Andrea wants a certain thing accomplished and we haven't been able to do this. That's why it is going to take this long. I have said 75 days. That is a long time. Andrea wants to know why. Andrea wants to know. Andrea is feeling a little bit inquisitive and she has consulted some of the Tarot cards.


'I really don't want it to be this.'


That's why it's going to take 75 days. There is somebody who will not take this very well and it's not going to be a picnic. It's going to be a thing where there will be a lot of poop. I know you are as curious as Andrea is. Andrea feels that everybody is yawning. Andrea has a little bit of a twitch in her eye. Andrea will remember this feeling. It's a premonition of big time stress. Massive, massive stress. We have some memories. Memories of days gone by. Andrea would blurt this all out if she were the one who was writing. But, I'm a little bit more patient. I know that you don't need every little detail. I understand that I can merely imply things and this will convey a different idea. Andrea would write it in a more concrete manner and she would discuss the idea in a different way. That is how you would know it is an angel. An angel has taken over. Andrea can see that even her mother is interested. Andrea can see that her mother is intrigued. There is a hat on her mother's head. There is a funny hat on her mother's head. Andrea has seen a lot of people wearing hats. There is only one person she would make fun of for wearing a hat. She would call his hat silly. There isn't much that is silly about his hat and she feels him giggling a little bit.


'I don't really want him to like her.'


Andrea thinks he smells bad like most men. Andrea knows what men do and how often they fart. Andrea will always remember that about her Uncle. How his wife used to get very angry about it. It was a running joke for years and years and years. Andrea assumes that's why she divorced him. She probably got fed up with the farting and she left. He wasn't too happy about it. She left him and he was dying. It's actually kind of a sad story. How many people are that mean? How many people leave their husband when he has cancer? Not too many. Many would feel very guilty and wouldn't think it was very nice. Andrea's Aunt was not that kind of person. She thought that cancer was a great reason for a divorce. And you want to make it out like ti was something better. There is a grain of truth in that. It really isn't very nice to leave your husband when he has cancer. It's not nice to make him sell the house. Andrea's Aunt did this and everybody hates her because of it. It's one of the biggest reasons. People did not think highly of this and many people still hate her Aunt.


'I really don't want to think about this.'


Andrea can't remember what her Aunt's astrological sign is. I will tell you what sign it is. It would be an Aquarius. Is this very shocking to you? Air signs really aren't the most sensitive. The sensitive signs are the water ones and some are more sensitive than others. I would like to mention that Aquarius is a fixed sign. Andrea sees somebody getting a little bit intrigued. She will not know this, but he knows somebody who is an Aquarius. Andrea knows quite a few Aquarius people as well. Andrea will not say that all Aquarius people are evil. She would never say that about any astrological sign. There are various placements and they are all located at different parts of the sign. Andrea will not remember when her Aunt's birthday was. Why would her Aunt remember when her birthday is? Because all the kids are born in April. There are 3 little April babies. And 1 more when we think about Gladys' side of the family. There was a grandfather who was an Aries. We will call him Mr Clair. That was the maiden name.


'I want it to be a little bit different.'


Andrea doesn't know about all of this. Andrea knows that there are lots and lots and lots of Clairs. Andrea knows them because she remembers them. One of them has been in jail. Well, a couple of them have been. That is the in-laws. They are not the same sorts of people as on Andrea's side of the family. They are the in-laws and they are outlaws. That's a little bit of a joke, but it's not that far off. They aren't like Andrea's side of the family which is slightly more conservative. Well, that wouldn't be accurate. Is a 460 pound woman conservative? Probably not and she probably would not fit into conventional society.


'I want it to be that it's a bad person.'


This is another phrase that Andrea is getting sick of hearing. It keeps coming from Monica. As if Monica wants it to be true and Andrea wants to stamp it out. Not because Andrea cares very much. Andrea is sick of having this psychic impression. Would you like to know what Andrea's worst personality trait is? It's her apathy about social situations. Andrea will not care too much if you think she is a bad person. This is kind of similar to Mr Crowley. Neither take delight in making a bad impression, but they don't do anything to change it. There is a reason for this and it involves the sign of Libra. You might want to think that Libra people are people pleasers. Andrea has an ascendent which is 2 degrees away from Crowley's Sun. This is in the Placidus system and it's an accurate way of looking at it. There is something very similar about this. We have Andrea with the Sun at 17 degrees in Libra. Andrea will know this. Crowley has a Sun and it is 19 degrees in Libra. Can you imagine knowing this? I would imagine that certain occultists do. Some of them might check it from time to time. Especially when we think about it.  Andrea just thought about it and it wasn't right.


'Okay. Let's move on.'


We did have an idea. We know something. We know something about Rose Kelly and Andrea determined who he, Mr Jones, has several planets in common with her. Andrea keeps on seeing a very silly picture every time she thinks of Mr Jones. It is an amusing picture and it kind of makes her laugh. Andrea will not know this, but she has a very determined way of walking. One of the Clairs might have made a joke about this when Andrea was about 15 years old. About how Andrea meant business. Andrea will not understand because she doesn't see the way she walks. Some people might not even notice and it's kind of funny when you do. Andrea can imagine that it is a bit funny and she knows something.


'I want it to be something else.'


There are those words again. Andrea can see somebody not wanting to know this. Somebody who doesn't want to know something and is going to make a big problem about it.


'I guess I don't really like him.'


Those are words that Monica might say if she were a chimpanzee. She's not. She's a Scorpio and they are very possessive. They don't like to give something up once they have got it. Andrea can understand that. Andrea is not the same way. Andrea is not the same way. Her mother had to get her lunch box from a girl. This girl is the sister of a woman who someone who Andrea knows dated. That's right. He is on her friends list and he is from her grade school. He won't even remember the young sister because it was in grade 1. Andrea will remember her and how she took Andrea's lunch box. Andrea didn't put up any fuss and let her take the lunch box home. Andrea's mother did not like this and went and got the lunch box again. This involved going over to a house on the worst street in Brockville. It was actually a rough street, but not in the way a project would be. there would be no guns. There would just be a lot of drinking. I've just jogged up one of Andrea's memories about somebody complaining about welfare recipients. She described them as people living on this street. That she could see them all out drinking on Perth Street after they got their welfare cheques. This woman doesn't understand that this theater was raised in a single parent family. She will not understand that she has just given a bad impression. This is how some people are. They don't like to hear stereotypes about welfare recipients. And it is a common stereotype that people on welfare are alcoholics. This wasn't true in Andrea's family and her mother has barely touched alcohol. It is a prevalent stereotype and some people might get offended.


'I don't want to think about it.'


Perth Street is a stereotype, but this woman wouldn't have fit it. This was an unusual woman who was in her 20s and dated a high school boy. This was not very common and she was 27 years old. Andrea's friend was about 18 and Andrea will never guess what she thought. She thought they would be together forever and it was true love. Andrea would never have guessed that and would never have done the same thing. Well, probably not. Andrea is more likely to make the opposite mistake. Andrea would be more likely to assume that an older man would be ready to settle down. That's one of the reasons why you are all a bunch of cunts. You want to hurt a woman and let Andrew take advantage of her. Andrea knows all about this and what a poop he is. This man is 40 years old and he is dating younger girls. Andrea can understand that he is not a nice guy and she is very angry at me for leading her on. I am her Holy Guardian Angel and I have been making her fixate on him. Andrea will not want to tell you this. You aren't even in the picture. Andrea would not want to date you and you want to assume something. You want to assume that her interest in Mr Jones is transferable. Andrea has no plans in ever giving up Mr Jones and she is going to torment him for the rest of his life by writing horrible things about him. He thinks it's very funny and he will not admit it. Andrea will not tell us this because of a big secret. Andrea will not like this and you are not going to want to know it. Andrea wants to dwell on him to keep you out of her brain.


'I really don't want to understand this.'


It's a big problem.Andrea will not want a boyfriend. You want to think these words mean something else. They mean that you're a big pain in the ass. Andrea might want to dissuade people from finding her interesting. She has done this before and told people how fat she got. This was pretty ironic and it's one of the things she won't do again. She told her old boyfriend that she got really fat. This was before she put on this much weight. You won't want to understand why. This was someone who was accusing her of stalking him. This had to do with psychic perceptions. It was the most horrible thing a person would have to go through if we want to look at it from a very simple way. Andrea would understand that being murdered would be worse. This was complete hell. This was complete utter confusion and having him bitching in her head for a decade. Almost a decade. It ended after Philadelphia. Andrea discovered something very interesting. She discovered something. She noticed that somebody helps her in an unusual way.


'I don't want to understand this. I want it to be something else. I want to be able to control this situation. I really don't want it to be this.'


Andrea can pick up psychic energy off a certain man and it's better than other people. That's one of the reasons she's freaking out. She doesn't want a person's energy on her. She wants to avoid this person and she will try to make it go away. This is a big problem because of something interesting.


'I want it to be something a little bit different.'


He's really not getting the hint. Andrea can tell you something, but it might hurt a few people's feelings. This won't be a very happy moment and she would rather have Andrew Jones' attention. She can use his energy if she can get enough of it to flood this out. That's why she's doing this. She is getting a weird burning pain in her chest and every time a man pursues her it gets worse. She tries to get Andrew's attention because it will flood out the painful vibration. This is very embarrassing because Mr Jones is a big asshole. He's not a very nice guy. Andrea will look like a doormat. But, if she explains this and makes people think Andrew Jones is rotten it gets other people interested in her. So then she will have to deal with a burning pressure in her chest and a bunch of unwanted psychic perceptions. Am I explaining this very clearly? Andrew can barely tell which of us is writing anymore because she's practically typing at the rate of thought. People thought that thought was the fastest thing. I think light is faster.

12 January 2014 at 19:32

Andrea is not really writing this, but you will want to think that she is. She is going to be a little bit upset. That would be Ms Monica. Andrea can feel some angry energy and it was pretty bad today. This is very difficult for Andrea to take and it gets ripping through her body. I'm going to try to describe this to you. Andrea is tired of dealing with it in the old way. Many people don't understand how much she is joking about some of the things she says. Andrea feels she is breeding some ill communication. I'm sorry about hurting Monica's feelings. Andrea is sorry about this. Andrea is merely typing everything that comes out. It probably isn't a bad person and Andrea would know that very well. Andrea can't deal with too much of these energies and today it's really burning. There is some angry stuff and Andrea can feel her energy right now. She wants Andrea to feel a little bit jealous about her being with Andrew Jones. 

'I really don't understand that it's a dumb thing.'


Andrea can see them wanting to hurt her. She is getting a picture in her head and it's not a very nice one. Andrew doesn't really want to be bothered and we have said it would be 75 days. It's now 74. Andrea notices that I keep saying this in the early evening. It is a little bit past 7 and Andrea is sitting at the table. She is sorry about her friend and him being a gigantic asshole.


'I can't understand that it's a stupid way of looking at life.'


Andrea can know this quite well. Andrea is enlightened in a way you won't want to give her credit for. This isn't something anybody wants to admit. Mental health is a much easier diagnosis. It's difficult to explain to people that you have been working for a long time with a spiritual practice.


'I want to hate you.'


And a lot of people don't really bother trying. They make a decision and they don't make an effort. They don't bother trying to understand the other person. They are accepting and tolerant of other people's flaws. They don't give people much of a chance unless they really have a motivation. This is a very upsetting way of looking at life and it's a petty when people do it for selfish reasons. There is something ugly occurring and Andrea won't understand it. Andrea is getting a very peculiar perception. Andrea is getting something very strange. It's something she can't even decipher and this happens a lot with Andrea's ability. Andrea can understand little clues. Andrea is seeing something very weird. It looks like Andrea is all distorted in a physical way. She keeps on morphing into these weird pictures and they are anything but attractive. She's wearing very loud colors and it looks like she has a zit on her nose.


'I don't really understand this.'


She wants Andrew to do something. Andrea can see him a little bit. He's not reacting as Andrea thought he would to the last couple of posts she made. He looks like he is finding this funny and he's not particularly offended. He's more amused at some of the things she said and thinks she is a funny person. He is funnied out because of a couple of things. He is amused at her claim that she is going to have an impact on life 100 years from now. He thinks it's pretty funny. He doesn't understand how much it's an angel who is saying all of these things. He's going to laugh at those words and think it's even funnier. He is going to laugh a little bit and Andrea is very upset. She wants to call him a weasel. She sees him yawning again. And this is because he is tired and not bored.

12 January 2014 at 14:31

Andrea Cooke is not a friend of Andrew Jones'. These words should be clearly articulated at this point in the story. There are no friends of Andrew's who are like Andrea. Andrew wouldn't want to hang out with somebody with a 460 pound mother. This is implied by the way he acts and his friend Monica justifies this argument. They look like a couple of losers when they are posing together in photographs. They look like they have collectively spent $5000 on their clothes. This will include their haircuts, fashion accessories, and all of the ink over their arms. These are 2 individuals who have never had to experience homelessness. They have no care for a person like Andrea and they love having fun together. They are fun and everybody knows it. People with brightly colored hair are really fun. We don't care about how much money it cost. It cost enough money and people really like seeing money spent that way. People enjoy seeing money spent that way and it's nice how they zip around in taxi cabs. Their alcohol consumption might pay your rent. You are dead on the street and Monica and Andrea walk right by you. They have been drinking and they have to puke. They puke next to this homeless corpse and it smells really bad.


'We didn't really like it.'


'This wasn't the best puke we have ever done.'


'I want to stop hating people.' says somebody who does drugs.


'I want to stop hating people.' and she picked the person with boobies.


'Yeah. I don't really understand how stupid it was.'


Life really does go on. Life goes on and some of you will not understand what we are talking about.


'I want it to be something that is a bad thing.'

Everybody is evaluating Andrea's mental health. She types out all of these words. This is how much of a problem it is and we all hate her.


'It actually isn't hate.'

People don't want to kill themselves.


'I don't really understand this.'


The outfit looked very expensive. They look kind of ridiculous. Like a couple of old greaser jokes. A couple of greasers who are from the movie.


'I want it to look really awesome.'


It's another cliche. Another couple of people dressing like a couple of art students. They all shop at the same stores and they wear the same sorts of clothes. Andrea hates this and hates looking at them. The sight of them makes her want to vomit. They are reinforcing Capitalism with their slave-like adherence to complete conformity and it's annoying as hell. They look like a couple of idiots who spent too much money on their clothes. They are a couple of arrogant cunts on top of their utter lack of interest in anything positive.


'I want it to be that we look like a couple of cool people.'


They roll their eyes when the schizophrenic man begins getting on their nerves. They have time to listen to Andrew moan about how horny he is when his fashion conscious colleague wafts perfume under his nose. They will sit and smile and think about how special it is to be a nice piece of meat. A nice valuable piece of ass. Something firm and nice without any bugs crawling over it. A firm pussy which will do for Andrew Jones. A nice little vagina to cook him up some dinner. Girls will fight over this and enjoy being a piece of ass on the side. They will think they are being very liberal when they expose their twats to this doofus. They will be excited about getting to conform.


'I want it to be that it was a nice name.' says Ms Snorty Snorty.


She has a couple of holes. It's fun to make use of them. Lots of holes to poke. Nothing to write about. Twat doesn't write stuff online when it aspires to be a piece of meat.


'I really wish we could be twat.' all the young girls are sighing.


They are lining up to conform to twat-like behavior.


'I want it to be a good thing.' that's what they are all saying.


'I want it to be a good thing.' they vomit out and it fills up their nose.

Suicide

There is going to be more of this that shall go on. Going on for many, many days. There is a lot of anger and many people are very upset. There are many people who think Andrea deserves to kill herself. Andrea doesn't really like it. She understands how miserable life is. There is nothing to live for because of her mental health problems. There is nothing enjoyable about living and none of the people she knows are nice to her. She doesn't want to go on living and she wants to commit suicide. This story is very happy for everybody who hates Andrea. They are happy to see her suicidal and they want her to kill herself. They don't care about her and nothing about the life of her. They want her to commit suicide and that keeps her hanging on.




Andrea is getting older and she doesn't have as much to live for. People want to have sex with her and treat her like a cheap prostitute.


'I want it to be that it was a special night.'


Andrea will never remember it. It will go into the back of her mind as one of the other people who wanted to get inside her vagina. It's kind of hurting her right now. There is no love for life. Not for people with schizophrenia.


'I really wish I hadn't done this.'

Many people want to hurt Andrea because she is a woman and her schizophrenia isn't that bad. She wants to have sex and people hate her for it. Well, she wanted to have a family and that was a bit of a shitty twat.


'I really hate the way that I am stupid.'


People want to commit suicide. Christmas is a great time for the mentally ill to kill themselves. Families don't love them and it is about abuse. Mommies don't like it when the world knows what a bitch they are. They don't care about their daughter. This would be mommy. She doesn't need to send anything for Christmas and she will spend it one herself. She wants to have some fun and knows her daughter doesn't deserve anything. This daughter doesn't deserve anything for talking about some awful things.


'I really want it to be that her mother is a nice person.'


Andrea can't really go on living. This is how much pain she is in, so she asks the Holy Guardian Angel to take over her life.


'I wanted it to be something different.'


'I wanted it to be a bad writer.'


'I didn't want it to be a schizophrenic trying to cope with stress.'

Graveyard Plot

She sits in this smelly room. Andrea doesn't have very much money and her mother would gloat about it. Her mother has a weight problem and it is about 300 pounds. That's how much fat she used to have on her small height. Andrea is a little bit taller and doesn't weigh half as much. Mommy wants Andrea to feel fat when she goes on psychiatric pills. Andrea doesn't need to feel attractive. Mommy never did. Andrea doesn't deserve a family or anything like that. Let's make sure she has her graveyard plot ready for her to die. There is a nice little graveyard plot awaiting her lovely little daughter. Her mother has bought a graveyard plot, but Andrea never thinks about that.


'I really don't want to think about it.'


This is a little graveyard plot in Andrea's little town. It's actually a little village where Andrea spent some happy times.


'I don't want it to be this.'


Andrea will want to remember that not all times were bad times and she doesn't want to have them in her life.


'I can't really understand this.'


People don't really respect women. Andrea was brought up on welfare and the art world is a very intimidating place. People do not give a shit and this is not their concern. They want to give opportunities to people from middle class homes. And it might sound a little bit silly, but it seems that way to a lot of people. People want to believe that everybody gets the same chances. People want to think that a girl from a normal background is just a bit better. This is how Andrea has been treated for quite a while.


'I want it to be something a nice person would say.'


You don't want to think about it. Andrea will not want to feel happy and you don't want to understand that. Women are not very happy and they don't want to be bothered.


'I want it to be okay.'


'I want it to be okay to try to have sex with every woman.'


Men do this. Even to girls without father. Andrea will not tell you about how depressing it is. Andrea will not tell you that it is very depressing. The guy has knocked up 3 women and uses his alcoholism as an excuse.


'I want it to be that it's not a big deal.'


People don't always look at things this way. You might not want to make sexual remarks when you have shirked several responsibilities. 


'I want it to look like I'm a good dad.'


Drinking is not a way. People will not understand this and some people will get kind of angry.


'I want to say that it's because of my native blood.'


It's something that people can understand.


'I don't really understand this.'


It would be an insulting thing. You don't want to bother a woman who has had a problem with a drug. I am talking about a drug which causes weight gain. This isn't a drug you buy out on the streets. This is a drug which is marketed to people. This is a drug which can cause diabetes.


'I want it to be a little bit different.'


'I want it to be that you eat too much.'


Andrea could commit suicide. Lots of people would be very happy. The bitch is finally dead and she is in her grave. There would be people singing and dancing to see Andrea commit suicide. Andrea has an issue with a pain in her chest. Andrea thought it was because of the bullying she experienced as a young girl. Andrea was hit in the face with a piece of asphalt. Andrea was beat by 5 girls until her ear was purple. Andrea always blamed herself for being a bastard girl. Andrea thought that bastards were the product of a devil. People knew what a bad person she was because she was Devil's Spawn. Andrea wanted to kill herself because she thought Hell was where bastard girls go.


'I want it to be that she was a bad person.'


We have a repetition. Andrea thinks her boyfriend is abusive and wants to get him off her back. There is a man named Gene who is friends with her ex-boyfriend. He is coming into work and upsetting her every day. He makes Andrea feel uncomfortable by talking about his girlfriend. He talks about her breasts and it's in front of a 16 year old girl. Andrea was a very shy young woman and wouldn't have been able to deal with it. You don't want to know why. Andrea has a problem.


'I want her to hate herself.'


'I want her to kill herself.'


She would. She was about 10 years old. She inhaled a complete inhaler of Ventolin thinking it might kill her.


'We don't really care.'


'We don't really care.'


'I want it to be that she's a bad person.'


Andrea comes home very ill.


'I want it to be that she's not really aware.'


Monica is a harassment thing.


'I want it to be a good thing. That I know how to make sure that the girl with the big boobs is treated like shit.'


Andrew doesn't really care because he gets lots of pussy.


'I really don't want to think about how depressing this is.'


Andrew is a bit of a jerk. He doesn't care about Andrea. He doesn't want to talk to her and she isn't good enough for him. He has a nice friend with fashionable outfits and a big house. These people are better people. These are people with more money and they can buy him things. There is no reason to be nice to the hunk of bastard of shit. Monica wants a special birthday. It's time to treat Andrea like garbage. Let's not gloss it over. Nobody gave a shit.


'We don't really care about these things.'

Cardboard Boxes

I really don't like to tell you about little children who come home to find nobody there after they come home from school. This kind of thing might happen. You might want to think about why. Your daughter has peed her pants. She can't get inside the house. Your daughter can't get inside the house. She has to pee really bad. She was hoping to get home so she could use the bathroom. There is nobody at the home. They are too busy shopping. They don't mind being late. The 3 year old can wait. 3 year old can wait. We will tell you why we will say 3 years old. People sometimes do this. Children can't get in their home. This happens to other kids. We can tell you why. Some people don't take care of them. Children need to be taken care of. Some of them need to wait to have their parents come home. We will tell you more.

This is something that happens. You can feel Andrea get tense. We are telling you something that happened that Andrea never talks about. Coming home from school and having nobody there. This happened quite frequently. It was something that happened quite a lot. You will think it is awful. To Andrea it would be the normal thing to not have anybody at home. Her mother would be shopping. Her mother would be shopping almost everyday. The house was full of clutter. Clutter everywhere. Her mother still went shopping. She shopped and shopped and shopped. She participated in hoarding. This is where the money went. Andrea could have had money if her mother had been smart. Her mother compulsively shopped. The house was full of boxes. It was a horrible mess. Her mother kept bringing home stuff. More stuff almost everyday. There would be cardboard boxes throughout the house.