Graveyard Plot

She sits in this smelly room. Andrea doesn't have very much money and her mother would gloat about it. Her mother has a weight problem and it is about 300 pounds. That's how much fat she used to have on her small height. Andrea is a little bit taller and doesn't weigh half as much. Mommy wants Andrea to feel fat when she goes on psychiatric pills. Andrea doesn't need to feel attractive. Mommy never did. Andrea doesn't deserve a family or anything like that. Let's make sure she has her graveyard plot ready for her to die. There is a nice little graveyard plot awaiting her lovely little daughter. Her mother has bought a graveyard plot, but Andrea never thinks about that.


'I really don't want to think about it.'


This is a little graveyard plot in Andrea's little town. It's actually a little village where Andrea spent some happy times.


'I don't want it to be this.'


Andrea will want to remember that not all times were bad times and she doesn't want to have them in her life.


'I can't really understand this.'


People don't really respect women. Andrea was brought up on welfare and the art world is a very intimidating place. People do not give a shit and this is not their concern. They want to give opportunities to people from middle class homes. And it might sound a little bit silly, but it seems that way to a lot of people. People want to believe that everybody gets the same chances. People want to think that a girl from a normal background is just a bit better. This is how Andrea has been treated for quite a while.


'I want it to be something a nice person would say.'


You don't want to think about it. Andrea will not want to feel happy and you don't want to understand that. Women are not very happy and they don't want to be bothered.


'I want it to be okay.'


'I want it to be okay to try to have sex with every woman.'


Men do this. Even to girls without father. Andrea will not tell you about how depressing it is. Andrea will not tell you that it is very depressing. The guy has knocked up 3 women and uses his alcoholism as an excuse.


'I want it to be that it's not a big deal.'


People don't always look at things this way. You might not want to make sexual remarks when you have shirked several responsibilities. 


'I want it to look like I'm a good dad.'


Drinking is not a way. People will not understand this and some people will get kind of angry.


'I want to say that it's because of my native blood.'


It's something that people can understand.


'I don't really understand this.'


It would be an insulting thing. You don't want to bother a woman who has had a problem with a drug. I am talking about a drug which causes weight gain. This isn't a drug you buy out on the streets. This is a drug which is marketed to people. This is a drug which can cause diabetes.


'I want it to be a little bit different.'


'I want it to be that you eat too much.'


Andrea could commit suicide. Lots of people would be very happy. The bitch is finally dead and she is in her grave. There would be people singing and dancing to see Andrea commit suicide. Andrea has an issue with a pain in her chest. Andrea thought it was because of the bullying she experienced as a young girl. Andrea was hit in the face with a piece of asphalt. Andrea was beat by 5 girls until her ear was purple. Andrea always blamed herself for being a bastard girl. Andrea thought that bastards were the product of a devil. People knew what a bad person she was because she was Devil's Spawn. Andrea wanted to kill herself because she thought Hell was where bastard girls go.


'I want it to be that she was a bad person.'


We have a repetition. Andrea thinks her boyfriend is abusive and wants to get him off her back. There is a man named Gene who is friends with her ex-boyfriend. He is coming into work and upsetting her every day. He makes Andrea feel uncomfortable by talking about his girlfriend. He talks about her breasts and it's in front of a 16 year old girl. Andrea was a very shy young woman and wouldn't have been able to deal with it. You don't want to know why. Andrea has a problem.


'I want her to hate herself.'


'I want her to kill herself.'


She would. She was about 10 years old. She inhaled a complete inhaler of Ventolin thinking it might kill her.


'We don't really care.'


'We don't really care.'


'I want it to be that she's a bad person.'


Andrea comes home very ill.


'I want it to be that she's not really aware.'


Monica is a harassment thing.


'I want it to be a good thing. That I know how to make sure that the girl with the big boobs is treated like shit.'


Andrew doesn't really care because he gets lots of pussy.


'I really don't want to think about how depressing this is.'


Andrew is a bit of a jerk. He doesn't care about Andrea. He doesn't want to talk to her and she isn't good enough for him. He has a nice friend with fashionable outfits and a big house. These people are better people. These are people with more money and they can buy him things. There is no reason to be nice to the hunk of bastard of shit. Monica wants a special birthday. It's time to treat Andrea like garbage. Let's not gloss it over. Nobody gave a shit.


'We don't really care about these things.'